My Lord My Saviour

I’ve never been much a fan of rap, but THIS is awesome!

“Beautiful rap by some devotees who is trying to use their talent through music for preaching and inspiring for taking spiritual path.”

My Lord My saviour.
Jay Srila Prabhupada!!!
My lord my savior, Here i am, my creator
i surrender. i give my all, take me lord
do what you wish im forever yours
(heres my soul, im forever yours)

Oh my Lord this world is a living … i’ve seen i’ve been i got a story to tell
about the struggle of my life as well
tryna enjoy without Krishna but i always fell
pity me i’ve waisted my time,
thinking that i be rich and own mine
but i asked myself,
“was the use o’ Gold of I dont know God
who creates, who maintains who annihilates?’
Oh Supreme Govinda unto You I surrender
be, mercyful unto me, i humbly pray for shelter
i been here for long even ages before
all i want is krsna love,
but i know its tough, to attain
and i cant complain, coz its said where theres God
there is always success
oh my lord please take me im forever yours.

Since time immemorial, body to body
been traversing out the universe and this aint funny
different places different house different people to see
i cant lie, earth and all this aint non but misery
look around your whole life and people that surround you
open your third eye and see whats up against you
birth, drith, disease and old age
you can ignore but at the end of the life
you go die like them
but here’s a brighter side to this, im not this body
to live or die is a curse, that comes with the body
being eternal as a soul my position is to serve
i surrender to the lord, i continue to serve
(you dont understand)
if you walk in my shoe once, you know how much i
need my lord in my life,
i aspire for His presence, I aspire for his touch
and his hands (why), his my lord”

will i ever see You, hear You, feel you (why)
coz I need You…”



State of Mind

This is one of the songs on my Mp3 player skating list. Eventually, I am going to be done with all the surgery and recovery following an auto accident – and in my mind, this is the song I skate to when I return to competitive form.


I wonder how many people have seen this video

When my husband first introduced me to the work of Henry Rollins many years ago and later showed me the video “Liar”, I really did not think of it as prophetic in any way. The video just seemed like a commentary on human nature. I really do admire Henry Rollins – he’s a very talented and highly intelligent man who’s not afraid to “tell it like it is.” Only now, his video “Liar” is much more disturbing to me than it was so many years ago.

I prefer the latter 🙂

The Replacements

A recent post by a fellow blogger coupled with my own impending birthday got me to thinking about lots of things past and present. While I think it is unhealthy to dwell on the past, I believe it is good to glance back periodically – for nothing more than a progress check and an acknowledgement that it was the past that led to the present.

It is customary to celebrate children’s birthdays, although I have read about families who celebrate MOM on a child’s birthday; in ‘honor’ of my own birthday, I would like to celebrate my own children.

I wrote in a not-too-distant post of my own about things that happen twice in my life; having two ‘sets’ of children would be among those things. I have given birth to eight children…two sets of four, each three girls and a boy, in that order. I would have had more if time and health would have allowed, although a rather bitter comment on said post suggested that my second set is a replacement for the first. I chose not to ‘allow’ that comment, because I suspect it is from a person (party to the loss of my first four children) I would rather not argue with publicly, and because I also believe that sometimes the best response is no response. (Actually, I’d rather not argue at all, but some people are predisposed to arguing and a year of legal studies has made me keenly aware of my aversion to arguments). My response is here: no, the second set was not a replacement…would that question have been posed if I’d had five or six or ten more children? Or ‘just’ one? Children cannot be replaced. And, life must go on. Further, I will not apologize for things that are not my fault. ‘Nuf said, and time to move on.

For quite some time now, I’ve been asking my husband to help me scan in some old photos for I post I’d call “memories.” I have pictures I’d like to share of some horses I’ve had in the past, pets I’ve had, and most especially I have wanted to post pictures of ALL my children. But, the printer-scanner is connected to my husband’s computer – which I will not touch, for reasons I have explained elsewhere – and my husband has not yet taken the time to assist me in using his computer…so, the old photos remain on shelves and walls and in photo albums. The only photos I have to post are the ones I’ve taken in the last year or so…and so much has changed for the better even since just the beginning of this year, I am reluctant even to look at photos that are more than a month or two old.

Here, in celebration of my own birthday, are the not-replacements:


Little Big Sister

who needs an umbrella?

sunsets are the best

award winning flutist


awesome – academic achievement award!


2 faves: Milo and Blue Blankie

future storm chaser


Blazing Blades

with Wiggle Puppy

at the bus stop

the athlete


above it all

a quiet moment

top of the world

(nearly) always on the go